Dear Amanda,
I can't believe its almost 6 months when we lost you and it was truly the worst day of my life. I miss you everday and when I see a baby that's is the same age as you. I really want to cry and much as I would want to have more kids I can't do it anymore. I miss you anak!!! I think about you all the time and I still cry whenever I think of you and all the what could have beens. I tell myself all the time that I'm okay and that i'm great. Its mostly to reassure everyone that i'm okay but in my heart i'm still not okay. Everytime i tell my friends what Im feeling they just want me to suck it up and move on. I guess di naman talaga alam feeling na mawalan nang anak so tapos na sila umintindi. The lesson I learned albeit the hard way is that people have their limits. They just want to sweep things under the rug and pretend things never happened.
Love,
Mommy
